Does my partner have Bipolar?

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If you are feeling like your partner behaves in ways which are just simply really mean and disgusting; if they beat you or are continuously putting you down, making you feel guilty, puts ‘blame’ onto you for a lot of the relationship problems, only seems to behave badly towards yourself but is angelic with others in public…

Are you in an abusive relationship?

If the above is all ringing true and seems familiar, then it probably means your partner is being abusive…you probably don’t want to hear that right now, but you do need to know that there is a reason why they chose you, why they only behave like this with you and not others. If you keep reading, I will answer all your questions…

Firstly, what I mean by ‘abusive’ is that your partner may be hungry for power and control and like to always be the one in the relationship who has it, which then means they will always do debilitating acts (to you or the relationship) to get their control and power over you/your relationship.

These patterns also tend to mean that they have always been like this in a relationship – it’s kind of part of their identity to be power hungry because it’s the only way they prefer…as this way gives them a lot of entitlement…i.e benefits which come with the abuse and they like feeling in control!

But I guess what you want to really know is why they picked you and why they are so abusive to you and perhaps not to other people…

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Traits abusers are looking for

The answer to this is really simple – they specifically chose you because you had some traits which were beneficial for them….traits such as ‘strong independent woman’. The strong woman doesn’t tend to show vulnerability or how she is feeling with anyone, so abusive people prefer a victim who has this trait. It means it is easier to control and manipulate without being caught out and having their true identity revealed to the public.

Another trait is ‘people pleasing’…this one is great as it means victims fall in the trap of forever trying to please their partner without ever knowing that the system is flawed and it’s designed to make you fail. There is no finish line, there is never a way to please an abusive person, as they make up the rules and continuously increase the standards. People pleasers will fall in the trap of ‘let me keep trying’ and spend many years failing to appease their partner and falling deeper under their control instead…

There are far too many of these traits for me to go into but you get the gist of things; the main issue here is really that the perpetrator is ACTUALLY INTIMIDATED BY YOU! YES, I said that right – they are jealous of what you have achieved and your empathy, your passion, your ability to love with no boundaries, your skills and attributes…and so they set out each day to break you down, one day at a time…so that you don’t really notice until you are far deep into the hands of your abuser…

If this is you, know that this post came to you for a reason… please know there is help available and you can reach out if you would like to…feel free to connect with us @Connectingwomen2gether on Facebook and Instagram.

Keep smiling at her in the mirror!

Sanita xxx

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Why does it always feel like my fault?

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When no matter what you do, it always feels like your fault! Even when you try to be conscious of everything that you do BUT your partner still screams at you and puts all the blame on you…there might even be times when you enter that conversation knowing that you were right and you wanted to talk about your feelings but they turn around and say that your feelings are wrong and that ‘if you didn’t do something, then things would have been better, or that if you didn’t get mad, then they wouldn’t have reacted the way they did’…

If you are constantly feeling on edge and guilty, it’s because that’s how you have been conditioned to be….

If this all sounds familiar, then know that these are some examples from my previous abusive marriage and I am writing this blog to help you see the patterns of emotional manipulation and how you can overcome them.

Firstly, emotional abuse is about manipulating an individual to feel a certain way – usually these are guilt, shame, worry, anxiety, depression, loneliness, unhappiness, etc – all the emotions you really want! Just kidding! I mean, the goal for perpetrators is not to make you happy, that’s for sure.

How do they cause these feelings?

  • Gaslighting
  • Punishments
  • Constant degradation
  • Rejection
  • Denial
  • Minimising

So they will minimise your feelings by saying you are overreacting to things, or completely deny their behaviour (which will make you feel like you are going insaaanne). They may even constantly punish you, so they have trained you to feel bad if you don’t do certain things that they want…one example of a punishment could be stonewalling where they act like you don’t exist and this can be a form of emotional torture.

The gaslighting is probably the biggest one here though, and this is when a perpetrator will tell you your feelings aren’t correct, or twist everything that you say or may project their own behaviour onto yourself…which can be very confusing. They will also lie, even fake their own emotions to get you to doubt your own thoughts – that’s the objective…for you to doubt yourself, so you can’t see past the lies and games and lose trust in your own judgements.

So how do you know for sure if it’s emotional abuse? And if it is, how on earth do you overcome it?

  1. Collect as much evidence as possible; try to make a note of conversations and how they react when you bring up feelings or anything you want to discuss which may cause some conflict.
  2. DON’T REACT! They may do any of the above techniques to try and throw you off but you must watch and observe for patterns. After a few weeks you will know for sure.
  3. So overcoming it is a difficult one – once someone knows they can manipulate you, they will always chose to do it because they enjoy the power! So this is where you decide if you want to continue in the relationship or know that you deserve better.
  4. If you chose to stay, then the only advice I can give you is to stay safe and try to remain as sane as possible…set boundaries but know that no perpetrator will like boundaries because it means they lose control of you and the relationship.
  5. Be aware of how anyone (partner or friend/family) interacts with you, what their patterns are, if they have to deal with conflict, can you tell them anything without any of the above reactions?
  6. Lastly, don’t allow anyone to control and manipulate your thoughts, listen to your gut and the more you see the patterns around you, the more you will start to believe in yourself more and the guilt will slowly start to dissolve…

I hope this helped. Please subscribe and share with anyone you think might find this useful and connect with us @Connectingwomen2gether on Facebook and Instagram.

Keep smiling at her in the mirror!

Sanita xxx

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You are NOT betraying your partner for reporting them!

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The insane levels of guilt and feelings of betrayal are enough to make you think that YOU are the guilty person, even after all the abuse and everything they have done!

After a partner who you love does terrible things to you, such as acts of violence, then part of you will want to report him as it’s the right thing to do…But then the other half of you will be wondering how on earth you could do such a thing… Probably because of the sheer guilt and heaviness, your heart feels like it’s betraying him/her…

If you are feeling like this and not sure what to do, then let me, please, give you some tips which might help…

1. She/He’s done it before!

Firstly, I can almost guarantee that if your partner is being reported for domestic violence or an act of violence towards you, then it certainly is not their first time they have done this! They may or may not have a record, as most women feel what you feel and are either too scared to call the police, or feel like they can’t, because they don’t want to betray their abusers. So, by you reporting and following through, you are helping provide some kind of consequence for your ex/partner, because as it currently stands, he thinks this violent behaviour is normal and ok.

2. Stop giving approval!

Do you really want this version of love for the rest of your life? For your kids’ lives? If you don’t report him, then then the abuse continues and you will live a miserable life…by not reporting it, the abuser may take your silence as approval of the abuse and may think that you want this abuse to continue (they have sordid minds).

3. Think about your grandchildren.

Every abuser who doesn’t get reported means that another person can fall into the trap of abuse without the warning! If we don’t report all abuse, then what chances do your future grandchildren or great grandchildren stand if there is a world of abusive people who continue their destruction without facing any consequences… if you choose to report, then you are doing your bit to make the world a better place for future generations.

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4. You are wired to feel guilty!

If you have been in an abusive relationship for any period of time, you would have been wired to feel guilty ALL THE TIME – that’s how abusers make you think everything is YOUR FAULT; that’s how they keep the fog around your eyes for so long that you can’t see the real manipulation! Please know, this is exactly how the abuser wants you to feel so he can continue his ways. It is up to you to break the pattern of guilt!

5. If it was a stranger?

Let me ask you something – if a stranger came up to you on the street and carried out the same behaviour as your ex/partner, would you be ok with it or would you report it? Or if they treated your friend in such a way? So surely your partner (the person who claims to love you) should treat you much better than a stranger, right? And if your partner doesn’t treat you better than a stranger, then what do you think you should do?

I know these points may seem a little cruel and I see that…but I also see many women who choose not to report their partner and then later immensely regret their decision…

I hope this helps you remove some of that guilt and heaviness and know that you are beautiful and you deserve a true, full, wholehearted love in your life!

I hope this helps you feel better and please subscribe and follow for more information on dealing with perpetrators and healing from abuse.

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Keep smiling at her in the mirror!

Sanita xxx

How do I know if they are really sorry?

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Has your partner done something to hurt you or have they physically hurt you? Have they called you degrading names or insults? Put you down, gaslighted you so you feel mentally exhausted in trying to tell them how you feel or do you just simply feel like complete shit after anytime you try and express your opinion on their behaviour?


I know the feeling; I was in an abusive marriage myself and often my perpetrator would do grand gestures after his malicious behaviour, which would make me think he was actually sorry…But how can you really know if they are sorry or not? Because, let’s be honest, they say it a fair few times but keep doing the hurtful actions?

Here are some tips to know if the perpetrator is really sorry:

1. They take full responsibility

So without being prompted by yourself, they own up to what they have done and genuinely show remorse – I don’t mean just saying the words ‘I am sorry’….because we all know that can be bullshit.


What I mean is seeing if they can be sorry without any excuses or justifying. For example, perpetrators who are NOT SORRY would say something along the lines of ‘I am sorry but you know I get triggered when I drink alcohol, it just makes me angry’, or they would say ‘I am sorry but if you didn’t upset me, then none of this would have happened’.

If it’s genuine remorse, then they say sorry regardless, with NO EXCUSES OR JUSTIFICATION.

2. They accept the consequences

This means that they accept their partner (you) might be upset or angry and will need some time to come round. Your partner would understand that you would need time and that this is normal.

A perpetrator would not allow their partner to be upset and would actually want to punish them further for taking the time to be upset with them – because they are not sorry. Someone who is truly sorry would understand their actions have consequences.

3. They try and make amends

If your partner is trying to make amends, not by doing grand gestures like taking you on a mini break away (this is what perpetrators do), but actually trying to be more respectful to you and trying to fix the situation. Maybe fixing the item they broke, they are considering your feelings and wanting you to feel better.

Ultimately, knowing if someone is really sorry comes down to whether they keep doing the same crap again, or if they actually start treating you better after seeing the consequences of their actions.

I hope this helps you feel better and please subscribe and follow for more information on dealing with perpetrators and healing from abuse.

Keep smiling at her in the mirror!

Sanita xxx

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Why domestic violence / abuse victims won’t leave?

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Emotional / Psychological  VS Physical Abuse

Emotional/psychological – you cannot see the abuse – its marks are invisible.

Physical abuse is one of few abuse forms which leaves a physical or visual mark.

Emotional abuse is designed to make you feel  a certain way – guilt, shame, sadness.

Physical abuse is used to make you feel scared, so that you can’t leave for your safety.

Psychological abuse is used to keep you in the dark, so you can’t see what is really happening, can’t see the abuse for what it is…

Physical Abuse is used as a punishment tool to keep you in check, so that you know not to step out of the perpetrators’ restrictions again…

Emotional abuse is about making you think the physical abuse was your fault, that you were to blame.

Physical abuse is actually the abuser in control…they always know their limits.

Psychological abuse is proof of this, as they meticulously plan their attacks which they cover up strategically with drama and fake emotions.

Abuse can be invisible and visible and is designed to keep the victim from leaving.

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Keep smiling in the mirror and I am sending you lots of love and light!

Sanita xxx

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